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the Monastery of Abrodol, whose gray, time-worn { very distinctly felt, making my sensations anything walls looked like a continuation of the sheer cliff rather than agreeable, as it turned round and round. that rose before us to the height of over a hundred At length I felt so faint and sick that I could scarceand fifty feet. Old wooden ladders formed the only {ly retain presence of mind sufficient to keep myself apparent means of access, if such, indeed, they clear of the cliff by the use of my invaluable fishingcould be called, for they were evidently unable to rod. I was nearly two-thirds of the way up when I bear the weight of a man, provided he could find a became conscious that, owing to these exertions, the foothold on the rough rounds, that were so close to fastenings of the net were giving way. I clung to the face of the ascent that they seemed to be pasted the rope instinctively; the vibrations continued, on it like engravings in a scrap-book. It was indis- { though I quickly neared the monastery walls: I putable that a horso could not walk up them, and } was, however, afraid to use my fishing-rod, and in a we began to doubt whether any of the monks had second I jarred heavily against the cliff, becoming made use of them for a month of Sundays, or, in insensible. fact, if any of those highly respectable recluses were } When I recovered my faculties, I was lying on a in the land of the living, for all our shouts and floor of a small square room filled with monks; Harscreams and gunshots made no more impression on }ry Boyd was holding my head ; Grey was by my the ears of the fraternity than upon the cliff itself. } side, while the affrighted faces of two of the Arme

We began to think that we might as well dine, and nians completed the group. I soon found that I was then proceed upon our journey, when & chance not dead, but in the turret, and in a few moments glance upwards displayed to my view an open shut several athletic monks had pulled up the other two ter in a little tower that overhung a corner of the Boyds, the rest of the Armenians remaining below monastic walls, out of which were stretched the head, } to take charge of the horses. shoulders, and arms of an old black-capped gentle I was considerably bruised by my encounter with man, who was gesticulating vehemently, and I pre { the cliff, and it was two or three days before I was sume shouting to us, as his mouth was opening and able to leave the dormitory which the kind and atshutting with unprecedented velocity. We jumped tentive brotherhood bad assigned for my use; but up and fourished our letters of introduction from { once recovered, I turned my thoughts toward thinthe archbishop of Broussa and the Greek patriarch, { ning the library of the monastery by removing the which last had been procured for us by a friend in most valuable manuscripts at the lowest possible, Jerusalem.

outlay. Such is the gratitude of human nature ! This caused the instant disappearance of the old But it is time for me to break off, as I have more human windmill, who, however, returned to his post, } than related “How we spent three days in Constanafter a few moments' delay, in a very flourishing tinople, and how we left it.” condition, giving place to a long rope, one end of which was soon dangling in our faces. No sooner did this take place than the Armenians plunged at

STANZAS. a strong net that was firmly attached to the rope, and, spreading it out, were about to roll me up in it,

BY J. SCOTT WILSOX, M. D. when suddenly it was twitched out of their grasp

WHEN wearied in a faithless world, and reach. This curious manœuvre made us raise

Who would not wish to soar, our eyes to the window, where the animated wind

And seek, beyond the gems of night, mill was turning round a piece of paper. We un

Some more congenial shore ? derstood this as a requisition for our letters, which

Where all is change, no lasting joys

Can crown the gayest hours; we again produced, and, the rope descending, sent

The dearest hopes despair alloys, them up for inspection before the high tribunal, not

And fade the fairest flowers. without some misgivings in regard to the safety of

Where formal friendships fade so soon, such a course. But we were soon reassured by the

There love is but a ray, net's coming down once more, without the docu

That ne'er dispels the clouds above, ments, which we accepted in the light of an invita

Nor warms life's wintry day. tion to ascend.

Tis but a gleam, a dazzling gleam, I lay down full length on the net, and was soon

Athwart the path of life, bundled up in it like David Copperfield in his aunt's

Which but illumes our sorrows here,

To leave a darker strife! shawls. Being tied up tight, with nothing free but my arms and head, the Armenians gave the signal,

But, toils no more-life's gorrows done and the monks began slowly to draw me up, during

The aching heart at rest, which operation I inwardly vowed never to catch

The sinless soul shall find a home fish again, as I participated in their feelings on leav.

Afar amid the blost:

Then Hope no more, with siren tongue, ing their native element. This was before I had got

Shall sing of ideal bliss; twenty-five feet above the ground; but, when about

For, there forgot, in that far land, twice that distance, the sway of the rope began to be

Will be the cares of this.



To properly commence our story, we must accom- } that look of astonishment at my question would pany the fair Ellen as she enters, unannounced, her have answered me without a word, had I really sister's elegant home, in one of the most beautiful doubted you. But what a beautiful bouquet you streets of our gay city, where her welcome is pro have here !" rising, and seeking, by ber admiration claimed in joyous tones by a group of many chil of the flowers, not only to bide her confusion under dren, to whom Aunt Ellen's arrival is always a joy. the penetrating gaze of her sister, but also to change After a time devoted to their amusement, the little the conversation. group is dispersed, each member of it laden with a “Yes, they are beautiful," answered Heloise, on portion of their aunt's attire, marshalled by Master whose face was now settled an anxious, thoughtful Charles, who, with her muff surmounting his brow, look. “ Charles culled them before he left this fancied himself a most perfect grenadier; and, de morning. If you will, you may have them." termining to enjoy fully the pleasure of this fancy, “ Thank you, sister, you are really kind; and, resolutely closes the door of the apartment they en since you are so generous, I will gladly yield to my tered, and placing himself as sentinel, announced selfishness, and accept them." As she spoke, Ellen his determination to make them all stay with him } stood for some moments before the splendid mirror and play soldier as long as he pleases. Leaving that filled the pier, and seemed to be occupied in them to the enjoyment of their unwilling parade, we arranging some of the flowers in her hair. return to the ladies, Ellen and Heloise, the mother} While she thús stood, Heloise regarded her attenof these little ones, who gladly avail themselves of tively, and there was silence for some moments, unthe opportunity for an uninterrupted conversation. broken save by the voice of Master Charles, as he

“You would not have seen me to-day," said El marched in the adjoining room, officiating in the len ; “but I was depressed in spirits, and thought I double capacity of leader and trumpeter; and then would come and have a romp with the children and Heloise, addressing Ellen, was the first to speaka talk with you. Were you ever dull or sad when "And so you were dull to-day, and thought to you were engaged, sister ?"

amuse yourself by tearing your unoffending sister, “ It is so long since then that I scarce recollect,” my dear Ellen ?" replied Heloise, smiling. “But I believe, as the « Oui, ma chere sæur ; and I have the satisfactime fixed for my nuptials approached, I realized } į tion of knowing that I completely effected my purmore fully the importance of the responsibilities I pose,” was the laughing reply of Ellen, who now was incurring, and sometimes almost feared to fulfil sought earnestly to divert her sister's attention from my promises to Charles. It is but natural, Ellen; the cause of her dulness. a young girl cannot enter upon duties of so serious . “Yes, my sister, you have succeeded, as I must a nature as those of married life, without many mis own. I am annoyed; but,” said Heloise, in a serigivings as to her own ability for their fulfilment; ous tone, "not so much by your question, as by the nor would it be well otherwise. It is an important motive which I fear prompted it." change, and should be thought of as such.”

For a moment Ellen was silent; the color mount“ It is, indeed, sister, a very important event, and ed to her cheeks and temples, as she saw that her I assure you I realize it as such. But come, He sister's penetration had rendered candor on her part loise, honor bright," continued Ellen, glancing slyly inevitable; then, casting aside all reserve, she inwith her merry black eyes, “ did you ever wish you goniously askedhad not engaged yourself ?"

“And what have you discovered, dear Heloise, “Did I ever really wish such a thing, Ellen, do } beyond my simple question ?” you ask?" inquired Heloise, in a tone of surprise, “That there is some feeling of uneasiness at your looking earnestly at her sister. “No, surely, I heart, at present, which prompted it, and which, if never did."

I may know, I would," replied Heloise. “ There, sister, don't be alarmed, and return me “You are right, sister; I have had feelings and my question with your eyes," said Ellen, as she read fears of late that have given me discomfort, and I aright the expression of her sister's face; "and do am now glad to speak of them to you, as to no one not be shocked at my question; I only asked to else would I breathe them." tease you. I know your attachment to Charles was { “Well, Ellen, as the course of true love never yet of too romantic and devoted a nature to admit the ran smooth, I shall expect to hear of some very possibility of such a supposition for an instant; and dreadful occurrence," said Heloise, jestingly; yet a

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keen observer might detect much anxiety under this į vicissitudes of time with womanly courage, hope, assumed gayety. “I suppose Louis and yourself and confidence." have quarrelled, and are both too proud to make the “Yes, my dear Heloise, I suppose I should; but first acknowledgment, and be friends again.”

precisely as my life has hitherto been a pleasant “Not so, sister, I assure you," replied Ellen. one, and my every wish almost a law immediately “ Louis is unwavering in love and kindness, ever obeyed, do I dislike the task of remodelling my disthe same. It is I who have changed, if change position to suit any one ; and I fear me, if Louis there be, since our engagement was made."

has already discovered faults, his discerning eye “You do not mean, surely, that you love him will, in all probability, detect others quite as glarless, or not at all ?" eagerly asked Heloise.

ing." Rising hastily, as she spoke, Ellen paced the “No, no, Heloise, do not mistake me; I could room with a cloud upon her usually gay countenot love him more than I do, and I believe, were nance. anything to occur to prevent our marriage, my life “Well, Ellen; and does his manner betray legs would be one desolate blank. But, sister, I do fear of love since then ?" asked Heloise. “Man usually at times for his future happiness with me, as well as loves most that which requires his guidance; his for my own. It is this that makes me melancholy." pride being gratified by the implied acknowledg.

“Why should you fear, Ellen? Are there any ment of superiority it gives to rely upon him. Beparticular reasons for your anxiety?"

lieve me, your changeable disposition will suit him “Yes, Heloise, there are many; our dispositions better, if he is firm, than if you were more like him; are so different, and so unlike. I would be gay, although I would not have you childishly fickle and partake of every enjoyment, regardless of con- } either: your own good sense must guide you; and sequences; while he prefers quiet, seeks but social remember, Ellen, that, above all other qualities in a pleasures, and would not swerve from the strict line wife, amiability is most commendable. Come, clear of duty and principle for an instant for any motive your brow, I want to see you smile again ; you are upon earth. Somehow, I shrink from the life of only too happy, and cannot realize it.” privation I fear will commence with my marriage." } "Perhaps so, sister,” answered Ellen; "and the

“Why you should picture to yourself a life of idea of quarrelling with my own happiness is so privation, I cannot think, Ellen. Louis St. Clair is ridiculous, that I cannot avoid smiling at it. The engaged in a very lucrative business, which, with eventful day is near at hand, and I only hope we care, should enable him to live handsomely, and, in will never regret it." a few years, renounce altogether its pursuits."

“You surely never will, Ellen, if you act wisely “Yes, yes," interrupted Ellen, hastily, “with { yourself. I do candidly believe that a woman may care; these are the very words that annoy me. I be happy or unhappy after marriage, as she herself cannot bear the thought of constant care as to the wills it; that is, where there is love to guide both.” indulgence of this or that wish, and I really some “Yes, sister, I know you think so," interrupteil times dread the future."

Ellen, as she now reseated herself; "and, as you "What is there in being properly careful so very endow the wife with such supreme power, I hope to terrifying to my little sister ?" asked Heloise. verify your belief in my own practice. You have “Surely you are not such a child, Ellen, as to ex. effectually banished the misgivings I entertained pect to go through life as through a highly culti lately, and I shall trust implicitly to your assurvated garden, culling only the choicest flowers, un ances for the future. But where are the children ? conscious of the existence of a single woed? You We have forgotten them." And, rising hastily, must have holier, higher, deeper views of life in its Ellen liberated the captives under the command of reality."

Charles. “I hope I have, Heloise ; but, for all that, it is { Leaving her to participate in their innocent mirth, life in its realities I shrink from; and I have dis we will now introduce more fully to our readers the covered very lately that Louis, with all his love, is { characters with whom they should become acquaintnot blind to my imperfections. Ho has discerned ed; commencing, of course, with our heroine, Ellen, that I am changeable in my purposes; a discovery I of whose position and prospects in life we have alnever made myself, and which, although I cannot ready spoken. The daughter, and the youngest, deny, I do not feel obliged to him for observing." too, of wealthy parents, she had been indulged in

" Then, Ellen, you should begin at once to remedy every wish, and her frank, affectionate disposition, what you acknowledge to be a defect in your charac- } which endeared her to all, saved her from being a ter, and be really thankful you have been made mere spoiled pet. Much admired and courted in aware of it in time to do so before it affect, in the society, she had selected as her most favored suitor, slightest manner, the happiness of others than your much to the surprise of her gay friends, Louis St. self. You know your every wish has hitherto been Clair, a young man of gentlemanly appearance and indulged, and life has been one uninterrupted day address, but whose quiet, reserved manner served to of pleasure ; but, in now assuming the duties of the contrast strongly with her gayety and animation, married state, you must expect to undergo the { He was one of those sterling characters so worthy of

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respect and admiration, yet so rarely appreciated, sought his home, and seen Ellen, as she heard his whom we might oftener meet, did we but pause to footstep, rise, unable for an instant to check the iminquire beyond the mere surface. As in gazing in pulse impelling her to meet him before he reached the sunlight upon the night-blooming flower, we the apartment she occupied, then, with an effort at perceive no trace of the fragrance and beauty self-command, quietly reseat herself, and wait to lavished upon the evening's zephyrs, nor detect that salute him with a smile only as he entered, she the plant possesses more than beauty of growth and į might have guessed the truth ; but, shrinking from form, so in life is many a noble soul unknown and intrusion upon the private feelings of her dearly unheeded, because it could not ostentatiously display {loved sister, she sought not very frequently to visit its priceless worth. Ellen Montrose, however, was her, hoping that Ellen's first lessons in the book of not insensible to his quiet merit, and all of her life would not eventually determine in unhapniness. heart's young love was lavished upon him, who fully And Louis, was he changed ? Ay. He, whose prized and returned it.

ardent nature seemed to demand a continual expresHis business was, as Heloise had described it, a sion, by manner, of affection, would seem satisfied lucrative one ; and, possessing the power of sur with this cold greeting, and, book in hand, we find rounding himself with comforts, and even luxuries, him hour after hour deeply engaged. A close ob. he hoped, in sharing his home with Ellen, to realize server might frequently detect an anxious, earnest all of happiness that his wildest dreams had pic glance bestowed upon Ellen, as she busied herself, tured. Thus entering life upon a pathway literally or changed her occupation ; but she saw it not, and strewn with flowers, why should Ellen Montrose many a smothered sigh nearly escaped her lips as have those fears she named to her sister ? Because she felt his neglect, and found him, if she stole a few girls so young—for she was scarce eighteen glance at him, apparently absorbed with the book can realize the practical duties of life until brought { he held. directly in contact with them. Can a young girl, to This mode of life was not suddenly brought about ; whom love is one bright, romantic dream, and mar. it had been by slow degrees; nor was there wanting riage but the assurance of its reality, imagine that a { altogether between them kindness of manner. But wish of her own would ever be at variance with the } where was the glad welcome, and the constant, desire of the loved one? or that he, to whom she is cheerful attention to each other which characterized now so dear, would ever pause to question her will, their early married days ? Gone; ay, gone. And however arbitrary? No; few look beyond the pre so gradually had this change been wrought, that sent sunny hour; and it was because, in the depth neither seemed to be aware of it, and yet both suiand fervency of her love, Ellen would encompass fered deeply. Often had Ellen resolved to break her whole existence and make it all his, that she the spell; but, as he too was silent, she strove to felt and feared so much. Let us follow these young subdue her wishes for more certain proofs of affechearts as they proceed onward in life, and mark the tion than this quiet kindness afforded, and tried to influence of worldly care upon their now undivided teach herself it was not reasonable to expect all the feelings.

devoted attention of former days. It was a bard We will not attempt a description of the splen task to school that young heart, with its warm imdor, brilliancy, and joyousness of the gay fête which pulses and ardent love; and many, and often times, attended the celebration of their nuptials, or of the { as he bade her good morning, and, with only a beautiful bride who, radiant as a bright star, sur- smile, left her alone, she sought the solitude of ber rounded by her scarce less beautiful satellites, was own chamber, and wept long and bitterly that so led by Louis St. Clair to the altar, and there, with soon Louis had learned to love her less. Nor was willing heart and in firm tone, pronounced the vow this all; for, added to this, frequently had it hapthat made her his forever; nor can we follow them pened that her earnestly expressed wish to obtain through their wild career of pleasure, as they are or accomplish an object met no approval, and was scen, again and again, the gayest amid the gay of apparently unheeded by him. These little trials, "those admiring friends who sought and courted them. unexpected as they were, had aided to estrange them

Two years have passed ere we revert to them. still more; and, as Ellen had often seen his brow During the early period of her married life, Ellen, clouded for some time after such occurrences, she now Mrs. St. Clair, was the gayest of the gay ; but learned to think she had angered him, and in silence now she sought less frequently the crowded saloon, bore the pain such a supposition inflicted. and busy friends conjectured that either Ellen St. Time thus wore on; but, of late, Ellen's heart Clair was not happy, or her husband and self were throbbed still more violently at his entrance, as she as selfishly indifferent to friendships as most young { observed a pallor of countenance unusual to him, married people usually become; even Heloise was and a restlessness of manner which spoke to her perplexed, for even to her Ellen was changed, but fears of bodily ailment, and consequently alarmed still affectionate, and she could not ask her why it her. To her kind inquiries, he assured her of his was.

perfect health ; and, not daring to urge an explanaCould she have preceded Louis, as each day he tion of the cause, though certain a cause existed,

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her health suffered with the oppression of her ac thought that at times almost unmanned me. I cumulated anxieties.

struggled long, Ellen, against the fearful belief; but "I must leave you on the morrow, Ellen," said it would haunt me, and my manner must have beLouis St. Clair, abruptly, to her one evening, “and trayed it. But now"may not return for some time. Perhaps," he added, “Now," she interrupted, joyfully, “I have been as he saw her cheeks lose their color while he spoke, mistaken, and you love me still! Oh, Louis, I would “one of your sister's children will remain with you purchase the joy this assurance gives with all the while I am gone, as you may be lonely."

pain of the past, for we never can mistake each For a moment, every pulsation of her heart other again; and oh, it is bitter to think that one to ceased, as each word had been so calmly uttered it whom we are bound by all the ties that make life had smote her heavily; then rising, and struggling dear, would even in thought desert us! I know my to hide her emotion, she sought to leave the room; follies have often justly angered you; but”but her trembling limbs refused their support, and,{ "Angry with you, I never was. I know why you sinking exhausted upon the nearest seat, tears un. think so; and, to convince you, I will tell you now controllable gushed from the fountains of her over what I thought you should never know, as I would charged heart.

have spared you the anxiety it would necessarily Surprised and terrified at the exbibition of a cause. It was not long after our marriage, when I grief so overwhelming, Louis in a moment clasped} discovered inaccuracies in my accounts which puzher to his heart, and begged, with endearing earnest zled and alarmed me; with difficulty, I discovered ness, to know its cause.

their author. I regret to even tell you how treach“Let me weep, Louis, or my heart will break," erously my partner abused my trust in him; and, she said, after a few moments. “It is not exactly when led on by the influence of his giddy young that you are to leave me now I grieve; but," she wife, you proposed first one then another expensive added, impetuously, “I cannot longer live as we pleasure, which, in my embarrassment, I well knew have lived lately. You, whom I love as my own I could not afford, I thought, by evasion and appaexistence, can leave me without one caress, to pass rent forgetfulness, to cause you to relinquish them, the long, lonely hours, and count the moments until without giving you the pain of a positive refusal, or you return; and then, when my heart bounds with this explanation, now due to you, as well as myself.” joy to meet you, I receive but a chill salutation, “And then it was all in very love for me, instead sometimes scarce a look of recognition ; and then of anger! Oh, Louis, can you ever forgive me for you calmly occupy yourself with pursuits in which trifling so wilfully with your happiness and my own? I can have no share. It is this, Louis, that saddens To think that I could not see you had enough of me, and is wearing away not only my health, but care without my annoying childishness, and that, in every wish that one so young would naturally have your most trying hour, I should have deserted you! for life ; for, without your love, life is not desirable; I cannot forgive myself. I am not worthy of you." and I have only now to beg that, if you really love “You must not reproach yourself alone, Ellen, for me not, you will in mercy hide the fearful truth." I should have seen that you waited for proofs of

" Ellen, Ellen, I pray you be calm,” he inter- { affection from me; but I was too selfishly absorbed rupted. “I cannot let you speak thus. I had not with my own cares, and the fault is equally mine." dreamed of this, and have much to speak of; for I, “No, no, Louis, the fault is mine alone; and I too, am not happy. I have doubted you."

can only say, in extenuation of it, that I forgot there “Doubted my love, Louis ? No, no, it could not should be no pride between husband and wife, and, be! You, for whom I have renounced every one, wearied with waiting in vain for your proffered caeven my own dear sister, kind as she ever is, as I ress, I determined, after a long time, to bestow none could not bear she should know my grief, else she myself unasked." might have blamed you. No, no, Louis, you could “And, my dear Ellen, being so long accustomed not doubt me !"

to receive gladly all you bestowed, I only realized “Yes, Ellen, I have. It is a long, long time since how dear they were when altogether deprived of I first missed the light footsteps that hastened to them. Let it be a lesson for the future, Ellen ; for, meet me whenever I came, and many months have with husband and wife, there should be neither falso passed since I received a joyous welcome to this, our pride nor want of confidence. Our happiness has once happy home, and have wondered why it was, trembled fearfully; and now"as I knew no cause. During the past year, I have “Now, Louis, were it not for your pale cheek and known many new cares, and have sought my home careworn look, I could be happy. But why do you with oppressed heart, where, had my Ellen loved let this trouble in business annoy you so much ? me as I once fondly believed, I could not have long You know we could easily live upon less, if it must pondered in silence; but, met with reserve and cold be, and you should not hesitate at any step, howness by one whose impulsive nature I thought could ever severe, if necessary." not be controlled, I have been forced to believe the “This is why I go to-morrow, Ellen. The events heart was changed, and there was a bitterness in the ? of the next week are to decide whether my name

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