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I took up a pen-I laid it down again-my hand trembled- the devil was in me.
I know as well as any one he is an adversary, whom if we refift he will fly from us—but I seldom regst him at all; from a terror that, though I may conquer, I may still get a hurt in the combat-so I give up the triumph for security; and instead of thinking to make him fly, I generally fly myself.
The fair fille de chambre came close up to the bureau where I was looking for a card—first took up
the pen I cast down, then offer'd to hold me the ink; she offered it so sweetly, I was going to accept it—but I'durst not-I have nothing, my dear, said I, to write upon. -Write it, faid fhé, fimply, upon any thing
I was just going to cry out, Then I will write, fair 'girl! upon thy lips.
If I do, faid I, I shall perish—fo I took her by the hand, and led her to the door, aud begg'a she would not forget the lesson I had given her She said, indeed me would not-and as the uttered it with some earnestnefs, she turn'd about, and gave me both her hands, closed together, into mine—it was impossible not to compress them in that situation - I wishid to let them go; and all the time I held them, I kept arguing within myself against it--and still I held them on. In two minutes I found I had the battle to fight over again--and felt my legs and every limb about me tremble at the idea.
The foot of the bed was within a yard and a half of the place where we were standing I had still
hold of her hands and how it happened I can give no account, but I neither ask'd her-nor drew her nor did I think of the bed—but so it did happen, we both sat down.
I'll just few you, said the fair fille de chambre, the little purse I have been making to-day to hold your crown. So she put her hand into her right pocket, which was next to me, and felt for it some time—then into the left/ She had lost it.” -I never bore expectation more quietly-it was in her right pocket at last-the pulld it out: it was of green taffety, line: with a little bit of white quilted fatin, and juft big enough to hold the crown-he put it into my hand;it was pretty; and I held it ten minutes, with the back of my hand resting upon her lap-looking fometimes at the purse, lometimes on one side of it.
A stitch or two had broke out in the gathers of my stock-ihe fair fille de chambre, without saying a word, took out her little housewife, threaded a small needle, and few'd it up-1 foresaw it would hazard the glory of the day, and as the pass'd her hand in silence across and across my neck in the manæuvre, I felt the laurels shake which fancy had wreath'd about my head.
A strap had given way in her walk, and the buckle of her shoe was just falling off--See, said the fille de chambre, holding up her foot.— I could not from my soul but fasten the buckle in return, and putting in the strap-and lifting up the other foot with it, when 1 had done, to see both were right-in doing it too
fuddenly-it unavoidably threw the fair
fille de chambre off her center- and then
SENT. JOURNEY, P. 174
ES and then-Ye whose clay-cold heads
and Jukewarm hearts can argue down or malk your passions, tell me, what trespass is it that man hould have them? or how his spirit stands answerable to the Father of spirits, but for his conduct under them?
If Nature has so wove her web of kindness, that some threads of love and desire are entangled with the piece--muft the whole web rent in drawing them out? Whip me such stoics, great Governor of nature ! said I to myself Wherever thy providence shall place me for the trial of my virtue-whatever is my danger -whatever is my fituation, let me feel the movements which rise out of it, and which belong to me as a
-- and if I govern them as a good one, I will trust the issues to thy justice: for thou hast made us, and not we ourselves.
As I finish'd my address, I raised the fair fille de chambre up by the hand, and let her out of the room
the stood by me 'till I lock'd the door and pụt
the key in my pocket and then the victory being quite decisive and not 'till then, I press'd my lips to her cheek, and, taking her by the hand, led her safe to the gate of the hotel.
SENT. JOURNEY, P. 179.
APPLICATION OF RICHES.
OW God did intend them,-may as well be
known from an appeal to your own hearts, and the inscription you shall read there, -as from any chapter and verse I might cite upon the subject Let us then for a moment turn our eyes
that consider the traces which even the most insensible man inay have proof of, from what we may perceive springing up within him from some casual act of generosity; and though this is a pleasure which properly belongs to the good; yet let him try the experiment; let him comfort the captive, or cover the naked with a garment, and he will feel what is meant by that moral delight arising in the mind from the conscience of a humane action.
But to know it right we must call upon the com. passionate; cruelty gives evidence unwillingly, and feels the pleasure but imperfectly; for this, like all other pleasures, is of a relative nature, and consequently the enjoyment of it requires fome qualification in the faculty, as much as the enjoyment of any other
good does :—there must be something antecedentin the disposition and temper which will render that good, a good to that individual; otherwise, though 'tis true it may be possessed, - yet it never can be enjoyed.
SERM, XXIII. P. 162.
THE judgments of the more disinterested and
impartial of us, receive no small tincture from our affections: we generally consult them in all the doubtful points; and it happens well if the matter in question is not almoft settled before the arbitrator is called into the debate ;-but in the more flagrant instances, where the passions govern the whole man, 'tis melancholy to see the office to which reason, the great prerogative of his nature, is reduced : serving the lower appetites in the dishonest drudgery of finding out arguments to juttify the present pursuit.
To judge rightly of our own worth, we should retire a little from the world, to fee its pleasures-and pains too, in their proper size and dimensions : this, no doubt, was the reason St. Paul, when he intended to convert Felix, began his discourse upon the day of judgment, on purpose to take the heart from off this world and its pleasures, which dishonour the understanding, so as to turn the wiseft of men into fools and children.
SERMON XIX, P. 87.