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sorrow reflects, . but happiness never. ble conduct. Amelie's aunt was above The evening before that I fixed for the all loud in her reproaches. Under the ceremony, the friends of both families pretence of ill health she then' took her were invited to a little fete which was niece to a country house, where the freto follow signing the contract. Every quent visits of the prince soon inade her: thing is an omen to a lover: Amelie was

disgrace but too public. One of the not, as usual, the first in the room, but prince's courtiers, a few months after, did not make her appearance till all bargained for his own dishonour in mare. were assembled, and then accompanied rying her. She is now Baronne *** by her aunt, who remained by her side.

and after remorse, wbich at first injured She looked palè, the tears stood in her her health and beauty, she became ac- ; eyes, and once or twice I thought she customed to her disgraced and dissipaseemed anxious to speak to me; while ted life. I could not bear to see her at the same time her aunt's eye kept now the guilty mistress of a man she watching every motion, though done

cannot love, the degraded wife of a with so slight an effort as scarcely to be man whom she must despise. I have perceptible. Yet still throughout the one memorial :of pist happiness—it is whole evening I could not, even for a her picture; not copied from her own moment, speak to her uninterruptedly. beautiful face, but from a saint of CorIn vain, reason combated the chimeras regio's, whose likeness is so perfect as of imagination. I was placed at a card

even to satisfy me. It seems to me table, where my position was such as to identified with purity and loveliness, preelude my seeing her, and there sur

and in gazing on it, Amelie appears to rounded by the chief branches of each

me in all the beauty and innocence of family, with whom good mamers forced her youth. It is an illusion, but it is me to remain till the party broke up, the only charm of a life which may have which it did at half-past eleven. On in length of years, but has no future. quiring for Amelie, I was told, that being slightly indisposed she had retired to her bed. A prey to anxiety, the more torturing from its uncertainty, I QURIKA ; OR THE BLACK NUN. left the house, and, lingering as I passed (From the French of the Durhess de under the windows of Amelie, I heard

Durus.) plaintive, inarticulate sounds. I knew Amelie's voice; I distinguished that of (Continued from page 125.) a mani, and also her aunt's. Two men, accosting me abruptly, told ine to go on

Towards the end of the year 1725, my way. I recognised them as domes the reign of terror being at an end, tios to the young prince, son to our friends began to seek each other out, reigning sovereign. A little farther on and the scattered remains of Madame de stood his equipage. I could no longer B.'s society rallied round her. With doubt my misery-Amelie had been sa chagrin I beheld the circle of her friends crificed by an ambitious woman. Amé- increase ; for the station I held in the lie could not be guilty, but her aunt had world was so equivocal, that the more already made her criminal. I spoke to society returned to its natural order, the no one; but, after wandering all night more I felt myself excluded from it. wildly through the streets, at break of Every time that strangers came to visit day-of my wedding-day-I purchased us, I underwent fresh misery. The exa travelling chaise, ordered horses, and pression of surprise mingled with distold the postillions “the frontiers of dain that I observed upon their counteFranee." "I threw myself into it, and nances when they first beheld me, put. left country, home, hope, and happiness me to confusion. I was sure to become behind me for ever. It was nearly two the subject, an aparte in the window years before I heard of my family, when seat, or of a whisper in a corner, that it I met by chance an old fellow student be explained how a negress came to be of Gottingen. He was going to my admitted as an inmate in Madame de city, and took charge of a letter for my B.'s society. I used to suffer martyrfather. His answer informed me of all dom during these explanations. I longed

hat had happened. The morning of the to be transported back to my barbarous day which was to have made me so hapo country and its savage inhabitants, py, every search was made after me whom I shonld fear less than this cruel every conjecture was exhausted as to world, that made me responsible for its this probable cause of such unaccounta- own evils. The recollection of a dis.

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199 dainful look would remain upon me for ness was soon to be entrusted. She whole days, appear to me in my dreams, one morning to St. Germains. . flit before me under the likeness of my Charles had spoken of me to her, and I own image. Alas! such were the chi had no contemptuous scrutiny to undermeras that I suffered to disturb me.. go.

She appeared to me an angel of Thou, my God! hadst not yet taught goodness. I assured her that Charles me to dispel these phantoms: I knew would make her happy, and that his disnot that repose was to be found in cretion was so much above his years, Thee !

that she need have no apprehensions on * I then sought for shelter in the heart account of his youth. She questioned of Charles. I was proud of his virtues, me much about him, for she knew that and still prouder of his friendship. I · we had been friends from infancy; and admired him as the most perfect being I was so delighted at having an oppor: that I knew upon earth. I once thought tunity of extolling his many virtues, that I felt for him the most tender love that I could have talked for ever. of a sister; but now, worn by grief, it “Some weeks passed before the marseemed as if I had grown old, and my riage took place, and for the settlement tenderness was become that of a mother. of business, Charles spent most part Indeed a mother only could feel the of that time at Madame de Themin es, same passionate desire for his success, sometimes remaining two or three days and anxiety for his welfare through life. at a time in Paris. His absence pained I would willingly have giveti up my ex me: I felt vexed at losing him, 'and istence to save him from a moment's vexed with myself for preferring my pain. I saw the impression he made own happiness to his. I had never done upon others long before he did. He so before. The days that he returned was happy enough neither to think or home were holidays for me. Then he care about it. This was natural, for he would tell me how he had passed his had nothing to fear,—nothing to give time, what progress he had made in tho him that habitual uneasiness I felt about affections of his mistress, and rejoice the opinion of others. His fate was all with me at the success he had met with. harnony; mine was all discord.

Once he began (describing to me the " One morning an old friend called manner he intended to live with her:) upon Madame de B., confidentiaHy en 'I will obtain her confidence,' said he, trusted with a proposal of marriage for • and give her mine: All my thoughts Charles. Malle. de Thentines had sud shall be open to her-every secret imdenly become a rich heiress in the most pulse of my heart will I tell her ; in distressing manner. Excepting her short, I wish there to be the same mugreat aunt, her whole family had pe tual trust and confidence between us, as rished on the scaffold in one day. This between you and me, Ourika.' The lady (having reached her eighteenth same confidence ! How this pained me. year,) as sole guardian of her niece, I recollected that he knew not the only was exceedingly anxious to have her 'secret I ever had, and determined never married, lest her own death should leave to let him know it. her without a single protector. Anais By degrees, his absence became de Themines, besicus possessing the ad- longer and more frequent, until at last vantages of birth, wealth, and educa he used to come to St. Germains for a, tion, was beautiful as an angel. It was few minutes at a time, (generally on impossible that Madame de B. should horseback, to save time on the road,) hesitate : she spoke to her son, who and always returning to Paris the same (though he at first showed some reluc- afternoon ; so that we completely lost tance at marrying so early) expressed a his company of an evening Madame desire to see Malle. de Themines. The de B. used to joke him for having deinterview took place, and his reluctance serted us; would I could have done so vanished. Anais was formed to please too! One morning, as we were walkhim. She appeared so unconscious of ing in the forest, I perceived him coming her charms, and possessed modesty so full gallop at a distance. He had been unassuming and euiet, that she could absent nearly the whole week: as he not fail endearing herself to him. He approached us, he jumped from his was allowed to visit at her aunt's, and horse,' and began walking with us. soon became passionately in love with After a few minutes general conversaher. I knew The progress of his feel-' tion, we remained behind, and began ings, and longed to behold this love, conversing as in former times. I rely creature, to whom: his happir marked it. former times! cried

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hệ, had I ever any thing to say in for-' then. Until the moment I have just mer times? I liave only began to ex been speaking of, I had borne with my ist since I have known my Anais ? Ah, grief; it had undermined my health, but Ourika, I never can express to you what I still preserved a kind of power over I feel to ber. Sometimes it seems to my reason. Like a worm in fruit, it eat, me as if my whole soul were passing through my very heart, while all seemed into her's. When she looks at me, full of life without. I liked conyersacan no longer breathe. If she blushes, tion, discussion animated me, I had even I long to throw myself in adoration at the gaiety of repartee. In short, until her feet; and when I think that I am to then, my strength had surpassed my surbecome the protector of this angel, and row, but I felt that my sorrow would that she trusts her, happiness, her life, now surpass my strength. her fate to me, ah! how proud am I of “ Charles carried me home in his my own. I shall replace the parents she Succour was promptly adminishas lost, but I shall likewise be her tered to me, and I returned to my senses. husband her forer! Her first affec. I found Madame de B. by my bed-side tions will be mine. Our hearts will and Charles holding one of my hands. flow into each other, and our lives min. They had both attended me, and the gled into one; vor, during their whole sight of their anxious sorrowful councurrent, shall she have to say that I tenances penetrated my very soul. I have given her an hour's pain.

felt life flow again. My tears began to “ How rapturous are my feelings, rise; Madame de B. gently wiped them Ourika, when I reflect that she will be away. She said not a word did not the mother of my children, and that they ask a question, while Charles overwill owe their life to my Anais ! Ah, whelmed me with a thousand. I know they will be beautiful and good as she not what I answered. I attributed my is ! Tell me, merciful heaven! what indisposition to the hcat and fatigue. have I done to deserve such happiness.' He believed it, and all my bitter feel

“Oh! whát a different question was ings returned on perceiving that he did. I then addressing there. I had listened I immediately ceased weeping. How to his passionate discourse with the easy is it, thought I, to deceive those most unaccountable sensations. Thou whose interest lies not with you. I knowest, O Lord! that I envied not his withdrew my hànd, which he was holdhappiness; bnt why gavest thou life to ing, and strove to assume a tranquil air. Ourika ? Why did she not perish on " Charles left us, as usual, at five! board the slave ship she was snatched o'clock. I felt hurt at his doing so. I from, or on the bosom of her mother? would have wished him to be uneasy A little African sand would have co about me': indeed, I was suffering vered her infant body, and light would greatly! He would still have gone to have been the burthen. Why was Ou his Anais, for I should have insisted on rika condemned to live? To live alone! it, but he would have owed the pleasure Ever and for ever alone? Neyer to be of his evening to me, and that might loved! Oh! my God, do not permit it! have consoled me. I carefully hid this Take thy poor Ourika from hence! No sensation from him. Delicate feelings creature wants her-inust she linger de-, have a sort of chastity about them. solate through life!

They should be guessed, or they are “ This heart-rending thought seized thrown away. There must be sympathy me with more yiolence than it ever had. on both sides I felt my knees sinking under memy “ Scarcely had Charles-left us than I eyes closed, and I thought that I was was seized with a violent fever, which dying.'

augmented the two following days. "At these words the poor nun's agi- Madame de B. watched me with her tation increased. Her voice faltered, usual tenderness She was distracted and a few tears ran down her withered at the state I was in, and at the imposcheeks. I besought her to suspend her sibility of removing me to Paris, whith narration, but she refused. 'Do not the celebration of her sou's marriage heed me,' said she, grief has no hold obliged her to go ihe next day. over my heart now: it has been rooted

My physician answered for my life out of it.

God has taken pity on me, if I remained at St. Germains, and she and has saved ine from the abyss I had at last consented to leave me. The fallen into, for want of knowing and of excessive tenderness she showed on lovirg him. Remember that I am happy parting with me, calmed me for an in. now; but alas bbw miserable I was stant; but after ber departure, the real

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141 and complete loneliness I was left in for not whether the image of their happi. the first time, threw me into despair. ness made me feel my misfortune more The vision was realized that my imagi- acutely, or that the sight of Charles renation had so long dwelt upon- I was newed my remembrance of our old dying far away from those I loved. The friendship, which I sought to find what sound of my lamentations reached not it once was, but could not. Yet he altheir ear-alas, it would but have dis ways spoke to me just as before-it returbed their joy. I fancied them given sembled the friendship be used to show up to the most ecstatic bliss, whilst I me as the artificial flower does the natulay pining on my sick bed. They were

It was the same, except that it all I cared for in the world, but they had neither life nor perfume. wanted not my care. I had but them " Charles attributed the change in through life, yet I was not wanted by my temper to the weakness of my conthem. The frightful conviction of the stitution. I believe that Madame de uselessness of my existence made me B. knew more of its real cause. Sho sick of it. It was a pang not to be en guessed my secret, and was sensibly afdured, and, sincerely I prayed that I rected by it. might die of my illness. I neither “ Anais gave hopes of increasing her spoke or gave any siga of life. The family, and we returned to Paris. My only distinct idea I could express in my languor increased daily. The spectac.e mind was—I wish I could die. Then at of domestic happiness, so peaceful--of other times I became excessively agita- family bonds, so en:learing-of love, so ted. All that had passed in my last passionate, and yet so tender—was miconversation with Charles rushed into sery, to a poor wretch who was doomed my mind. I saw him lost in the ocean to live in no other bonds but those of of delight he had pictured to me, whilst dependence and pity. I was abandoned to a deatlı as solitary Days and months passed on thus. as my life. This produced a kind of I took no share in conversation. My irritation more painful to endure than talents were neglerted. The only books grief. Increased it by fillilig my brain I could endure were those in which a with chimeras. I laucied Charles com-, feeble picture of my own sufferings was ing to St. Germains, being told that I traced. I fed upon these poisons-I was dead, and being made miserable by feasted on jay tears, and remained shut my death. Can it be believed ?- The up in my room whole hours, giving way idea of grieving him rejoiced me. It to them. would be a revenge-Revenge? for “ The birth of a son completed the what? for his gooddess-for his havirg measure of Charles's happiness. He been the protecting angel of my life ! came, his heart overflowing with joy,' Such guilty thoughts were soon re to give me the news, and I recognised placed by horror at having conceived" in the expressions of his delight some them. My grief I thought no crime, of the accents of his former confidence. but thus giving way to it might lead to It was the voice of the friend that I had one: then I tried to collect my inward lost, and brought painful remembrances strength, that it might fight against this back with it. The child of Anais was irritātion ; but even that I sought not as beautiful as herself. Every body where I should have found it. I was felt moved at the sight of this tender ashamed of my ingratitude. Oh! let me young mother and her sweet infant. I die, 1 exelaimed, but let po wicked jas alone beheld them with bitter envy, sions enter my heart, Ourika is a por What had I done that I should have tionless orphan, but innocence is yet been brought to this land of exile? Why her's--Let her not tamish it by ingrati was I not left to follow my destiny? tude. She will pass away like a sha- Well, if I had been the negro slave of dow upon earth, but in her grave she some rich planter, sold to cultivate his will at least rest in peace. Her friends land, and exposed all day to the burning are all happy-then let Ourika be so, heat of the sun, still, when evening and die as the leaves fall in autumn! I came, and my foils were over, I should fell into a state of languor when this have found repose in my humble cotdangerous fever left me. Madame de tage; I should have a sharer in them, a B. continued to reside at St. Germains' companion through life, and children of aft arles's marriage. : He often vi. my own colour to call me mother ! sited her, accompanied by his Anais— They would have pressed thsir infant never without her. I always suffered lips upon my.cheek without disgust, and, more when they were present. I know lain their little heads to sleep upon my

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ANECDOTE.! the only affection my heart was made Cordus the physician, who was accusfor?' Oh, my God! take me, I beseech tomed to receive bis fees only at the Thee, from this world-I cannot, cannot termination of his patient's disease, desendure life any longer !

cribes in a facetious epigram, the prace
titioner at three different times, in three
different characters.
Tres medicus facies habet, unam quan-

dorogatur
VARIETIES.

Angelicam: mox est cum juvat, ipse

Deus : ANECDOTE REGARDING A DIS. Post ubi curato, poscit sua præmia morCONSOLATE WIDOW.

bo,

Horridus apparuit, terribilisque sathan. So mourned the dame of Ephesus her love."

A lady not many years ago, who had Three faces wears the doctor ; when lost her husband, was so greatly af

first sought, flicted, that she not only expressed her- An angel's—and a god's the cure half self in words of the deepest toned sor

wrought; but could not bear any thing to ap

But when that cure complete, he seeks pear about her house that was not de

his fee, claratory of her uncommon concern,

The devil looks less terrible than he. all was sable. The carpets were black, The epigram of Cordus is illustrated the curtains were black,--a' black by the following conversation which cloth covered every table,-she ordered passed between Bouvart and a French a black spinning-wheel, and would only Marquis, whom he had attended during spin black wool,--and the direst wi a long and severe illness. As he endow's weeds clothed her person : to tered the chamber, on a certain occamake use of Pope's language, in his sion, he was thus saluted by his patient; translation of the Iliad, she was incon

“Good day to you, Mr. Bouvart, I feel solable, never to know comfort again

quite in spirits and think my fever has “ Griefs always green, a household full of left me."_“ I am sure of it,” replied tears,

the doctor, “the very first expression And liveries of black for length of years.”

you used convinced me of it.”—“ Pray Not satisfied with this outward display explain yourself." -“ Nothing more of sorrow, she vowed that she never

easy. In the first days of your illness, would receive the addresses of any man

when your life was in danger, I was in future, and she summoned her weigh- your dearest friend; as you began to bours and relations to be witnesses of get better, I was your good Bouvart; her solemn asseveration., They obeyed

and now I am Mr. Bouvart: depend the summons; and, when arrived, en

upon it you are quite recoyered.”—The deavoured to dissuade her from entering

Lancet. into rash resolves ; but she appeared deaf to all entreaty, and, kneeling down before them, imprecated the most severe cursės upon her head should she ever The Algerines frequently amuse themmarry again ; but, pausing for a moment selves by a curious kind of warfare, before she rose, as if alarmed at what which is created by shutting up a scorshe had done, to the astonishment of pion and a rat together in a close cage, her auditors, she added this saying when a terrible contest ensues, which clause, unless she should change her has been sometimes known to continue mind,” and which she uttered in a low for above an hour. It generally ends tone of voice. She did change her mind, by the death of the scorpion first, and and the widow's garments were thrown that of the rat in violent convulsions away in a short time; and, to apply the soon after. It is also a favourite diverwords of Hamlet, “the funeral baked sion with the Moors, to surround a scormeats did coldly furnish forth the mar pion with a cirele of straw, to which riage tables." The sudden torrent is fire is applied. After making several soon over; and such strong ebullitions attempts to pass the flames, it turns on of grief are soon dissipated, and leave itself, and thus becomes its own execunot a rack behind.'

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