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the delay: the longer thou continueft in fin, the more remote thou art from grace: What extreme folly is this in thee, to deprive thyself of that friend of whom thou hadít most need ? if thou findest thyself so backward to this holy duty now, how averse wilt thou be hereafter, when fin is more deeply rooted in thee, the devil in more firm posseslion of thee, and God himself removed farther off from thee.

From whence now are these false hopes, these vain promises of future happiness ? how darest thou refuse these gracious offers of eternity ? how full of doubtfulness and extreme hazard is this false assurance of that holy spirit, which thou hast so often grieved ? be not deceived, God is not mocked; look what a man soweth, even that shall he reap; he that soweth in the flesh, shall reap corruption : he that soweth in the spirit, life everlasting: if thou wilt not hear God's call in this life, he will not hear thine in that to come; if thou wilt not mourn for thy sins here, thou shalt howl for them for ever. And who shall then have pity upon thee? or who shall be sorry for thee? or who shall pray for thy peace? thou hast abandoned me (faith God) thou hast gone from me, and now will I stretch out my hand against thee, to destroy thee, Jer. 15. 5. 6.

Lord, let this teach me to deal truly with myself, to search narrowly for sin, timely for sorrow, and speedily for pardon: seek the Lord, O my soul, while he may be found, for in the great waterfloods (of his eternał wrath) thou shalt not come nigh him. LORD,

I HAVE finned, and I desire to repent; I have lain long festering in the grave of sin, and cannot be now raised without a miracle.

I have sinned in delight, in consent, in action, in custom, in long continuance of custom, without remorse of conscience, without thought of repentance: I am grown old and impudent in sin, and am no more worthy to be called thy child.

Lord, I am become loathsome to myself, how much more odious unto thee, who art a God of pure eyes, and canst behold none iniquity.

I have finned against thee, I cannot repent but by thee, my transgression is active, my obedience passive, I can no more arise from sin than death, even this desire of sorrow is from thee; the repair of my corruption in the work of thy creation, when thou hast raised me by thy grace, thou supportest me by thy goodness, thou leadeft me by thy providence, thou drawest me by thy patience, thou compellest me by thy power.

Such is my weakness, such is my feebleness by nagure, that I cannot rise without thee ; that I cannot stand without thee, when I am raised by thee; such is my strength, such is my ability by grace, that I am able to go with thee, that I am joyful to run after thee.

Lord, quicken and revive me from the death of fin, and grave of misery; sustain my wounded con- . science, with the sweetness of thy faving promises ; let thy patience and long-suffering lead me into repentance; thy holy spirit ụnto perfect holiness, and endless happine{s.

Lord Jesus draw me, and I shall joyfully run after thee; my body in obedience to my soul, my foul and body in obedience to thy blessed will, more - zealously, more willingly, more constantly to my lives end.----AMEN.

CHAP. XXI.

UPON SERVILE FEAR, AND THE DANGE

THEREOF.

No child can fear his father as he ought, that is not jealous of his Father's honor, that is not feeling, affe&ted with his injuries, and zealously devoted to perpetuate his praise; and it is as equally impossible that this Father can affect that Son, whose obedience is rather enforced by power, than invited by affe&ion,

If this be so in nature, it is much more so in grace ; for thou, O Lord art now a double Father to me, thou art my Father by creation, and my Father by redemption: Lord, as thou hast doubled thy goodness towards me, I should have doubled my return of thankfulness towards thee ; thy love to me is absolute, no breach can dissolve it, no time determine it; thy love to me. was from the beginning, and whom thou lovest to the end: My love to thee is fickle, false, and full of imperfections; and if my filial fear, even in my best performancesz be full of spots and blemishes in thy light, how molt deformed shall I appear, when I serve thee with an irreligious, and ungodly

fear? when I do thy will repiningly, and coldly, not for love of thy mercy, but for fear of thy justice; when I knowingly, and willingly, consenting to thy great dishonor; when I so zealous in the world's cause, yea, too often, in the devil's cause, and so benummed in thine; when sorrows dismay me, and fins delight me.

Ah Lord! how far am I from what I ought to be? If I go on in this path, I perish everlastingly; while I continue in this course of disobedience, r hang over hell fire by the flender twig of an uncer: tain life, and if that once break, my lofs is irrecoverable: Thou Lord hast said it, (and thy word is truth) he which denieth me before men, him will I deny before my Father which is in heaven. Lord, let this teach me to delight in thy service, to be jealous of thine honof, to thirst for thy favour, to tremble at thy frown, to submit to thy rod, to think nothing too dear to part withal, to purchase thy grace to promote thy glory. Thou, O Lord, lovest not a cowardly christian; if I prefer any thing to thy love, I am moft unworthy of it; tliat friendship is too dearly bought, which cannot be enjoyed without the loss of thy favour.

If my brother offend me, I will labour to restore him with the spirit of meekness, left whilft I ftudy to rebuke another, I become guilty of myself: No fin hall pa's me without some thew of distaste,

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