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heavy pressures of sin, under all the grievous bur. dens of sorrow, under all the sharp assaults of satan; that can make me merry in life, and triumphant in death.

Nothing can more truly represent me to myself, and inform me that I am all earthly, than the dulness and backwardness of my thoughts to be heavenly: who can ever hope to be an inhabitant of that city whose language he cannot speak ? Lord, when my thoughts are more zealously affected with thy heavenly joys, I shall then hope to be more frequently acquainted with thy heavenly visits; by my careless neglect of the one, I am now justly deprived of the sweet enjoyments of the other ; while I am wedded to this wretched world, my thoughts must needs favor of my corruption; but if thou, Lord, wilt once open mine eyes to be the glorious beauty of my heavenly home, I shall then know, and joyfully confess, that one hour thus spent, will add more comfort to my soul, more true content to my desires, than all these outward blessings, and I shall then account, and joyfully confess with thy Apostle, that all things are but loss and dung, in comparifon of the richness of thy love in Christ Jesus.

FOR thou, O blessed Saviour, art the blessed fountain of eternal happiness, the joy of my heart, the triumph of my joy, the comfort of my life, the

safety of my body, the rest of my soul; without thee I am far worse than nothing, and with thee I enjoy all things; for thou art in the Father, and I in thee, and thou in me; and in this happy union is contained that fruition, is enjoyed that for ever blessed vision, in which the souls and bodies of thy saints eternally delight themselves. O thou Sovereign of my soul's eternal comfort, how un. worthy am I to enjoy thee, that have been hitherto so much unmindful of thee, how undeserving to behold thee in that glory, that am so daily guilty of thy great dishonor.

Lord raise my thoughts to immortality, and fix my soul upon the love of sweet eternity ; let my chiefest joy be, ever to contemplate thee, whe art my chiefest good.

Pardon those wretched hours that have been lof in search of outward happiness; O make me to redeem them, by abandoning the creature, and placing my affe&tions wholly on the beauty of the great Creator, expatiate my, finful soul with daily meditations of my future joys, that I may love thee more fervently, fear thee more dutifully, desire thee mere earnestly, long for thee more heartily embrace thee more faithfully, and think of thee more joyfully, to my live's end. Amen.

CHAP. XXXIII.

SPON UNCHRISTIAN LIKE DE JECTED NESS IN

POVERTY.

W HY do l'excruciate myself with apprehensions of a seeming evil ? how unworthy am ; I of this life, which I hold from that God, whom I dare not truft? Will God feed me with the delicates of heaven, and not give me bread ? will he give me full draughts of the rivers of his eternal pleasures, and not afford me temporal refreshments ? thall my death be precious in his eyes, and my life uncomfortable in mine own? can there be any evil, and the Lord hath not done it? fhall he do it, and Thall I complain? if poverty be evil in itself, yet it is good for me ; the evil of fin hath drawn upon me this evil of punishment; so this evil is from nature, and the good from grace : by this affli&tion I am weaned from the world, and made desirous of my heavenly home; I am now put in mind, that my treasure being there , my heart should be there also; I am now fully assured (by my patience and humilty under this affliction, and by the quiet fruits of righteousness it daily bringeth forth in me) that I am God's child, that as I am now mi de partaker of my Saviour's sufferings, so shall I be hereafter of his glory; that I part with earthly contentments, to enjoy heavenly comforts. Lord, when thou lendeft me thy staff of confolation, I shall be well able to endure thy rod of affli&ion; although sy body be worse, I shall then find my foul to be much better, my present condition happy, my future blessed.

In what state foever i am, I will think that belt, because thou (Lord) haft put me there: if my calling be low, my account will be the less; if I discharge this faithfully, I shall not lose my reward. Thou O Lord, lookeft not upon my greatness, but my goodness, my faithfulness in thy service: A pin in thy material temple was as useful as a stone; if I be any thing in thy spiritual, it is enough ; yet let me not content myself with easiness and indifferency in

heavenly blessings, but labour to fupply mine out ottara waxed wants toy inward graces; so shall this earth.

ly bitterness be turned into spiritual sweetness, and eternal blessedness.

Thou (O Lord) haft allotted my portion in this life, most agreeable to thy divine wisdom, most suitable to my frail condition ; and why take I then thought for to morrow? sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof: thou alloweft me lawful means for increasing of it, thou forbiddest me repining thoughts to distrust thee in it; Lord, let me first seek thy kingdom, and the righteousne's thereof, and then I know assuredly, that all things needful

for me shall be added to me.' x hit once my Jesus

O thou blessed Saviour of the world, who for my fake wert willing to endure the scornful poverty of this life, to purchase my redemption, teach me by thine example, and for thy fake to undervalue all these glorious pomps of these enticing vanities, that though my body be despised by the world, my finful soul may be accepted with thee, and both soul and body may eternally be happy where thou art.

Lord, by how much (by thy great sufferings) thou wert made the viler for me, by so much (by thy rich mercy) let thy love be ever dearer to me.

O give me graces suitable to all events ; let not prosperity puff me up, nor adversity too much deje&t me; but for thy mercy fake, let happiness in Christ be all in all unto me; make me humble in the one, patient in the other, thankful in either, happy in both.

Grant Lord, that no ungodly care or sinful sorrow may disturb me, that I may with willingness, and thankfulness, and joyfulness of heart, contentedly rely upon thee.

Enrich my heart with with heavenly thoughts, give me that better part which cannot be taken

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