« السابقةمتابعة »
for he is gracious, merciful, flow to anger, and of great kindness, and repenteth him of the evil.
AS an unfeigned sign of my repentance, in anguish of heart, and bitterness of soul, I earnestly defire to search into the secrets of my finful thoughts, to unbosom all my sins, and lay them open to the view of all thy faints, that thou mayest have the glory, they the good, and I the shame of my confeffion, that so this. penitent sense of mine iniquities (which I thankfully acknowledge cometh alone from thee) may be an evidence unto me, that thou wilt also give me pardon for them.
Lord, I willingly confess myself to be a great and grievous finner, mine original defiled, my birth polluted, mine infancy stained, my youth ensnared, my manhood corrupted, mine age besotted.; .
Mine imaginations vain, my thoughts finful, my words wicked, mine actions abominable, my whole life a very sink of sin and all uncleanness.
When thy hand hath been heavy upon me, I have then promised the amendment; when thy rod hath been taken off from me, I have again returned to mine evil courses; this plainly sheweth, that I have hitherto fought but myself in thee, and may therefore justly fear to be forlaken of thee.
I have been undutiful to thee my God, envious and uncharitable to my neighbour, hypocritical to the world, deceitful to mine own soul.
My thoughts have been wanton, my desires Tafcivious, my actions unclean.
I have been blind to thy precepts, deaf to thy promises, dumb in thy praises, lame in thy fervices, fack at thine ordinancés, dead to thine embraces.
I have broken all my promises, I have slighted all thy threatenings, I have abused all thy mercies, I have rejected all thy favors, I have delayed my repentance, I have resisted the checks of mine own conscience, I have quenched the motions of thy blessed spirit, and turned thy grace inte wanton. ness; and yet, as if all this had been too little to. condemn me, I have moft daringly presumed on thy mercy, and most ungraciously resolved to go on in my impieties.
Lord, thou hast promised to forgive those that: repent, to ease those that are heavy laden, to raise. up those that are falen, to satisfy those that are hungry, and to bind up thote that are broken-hiearted.
O Lord my God, I earnestly desire to repent; I am laden with a burthen insupportable, I am feeble. and fore smitten with the terrors of thy law, my flesh trembleth, and my lieart fainteth;: I am fallen
into the very mouth of hell, I am sorely wounded with the remorse of mine own accusing conscience, and hungry for the sweet refreshings of thy saving grace.
Thou, O Lord, haft made me sensible of this my great misery, and thou alone canst make me capable of thy rich' mercy ; unto that mercy therefore, I appeal, with fighs in my soul, and sorrow in my heart. . ,
thou, which art the blessed Fountain of all goodness, which desirest not the death of a sinner, but rather that he should repent and live, have mercy upon me.
O thou, which art the Saviour of the world, which camest to seek, and to save those which were lost, have mercy upon me.
• O holy, and for ever blessed spirit, thou which
feedest and refreshest the distressed souls of thine elect, have mercy on me. "
Let thy power (o blessed Father) support my weakness; thy wisdom (O blessed Son) supply my folly; thy love (O blessed Spirit) restrain my wil. fulness; that as thou art eternally one, so I may for ever be at unity with thee, although most woefully divided in myself,
Lord, as thou hast given me a heart to pray unto thee, fo give me also a foul to praise thee, and a fe. rious resolution to perform those promife's I make unto thee.
Lord sweeten all my sorrows by thy blessed sufferings, enlarge my heart with thankfulness for thy many favors, strengthen my weak faith, restrain my rebellious nature, increase daily in me the gifts and graces of thy blessed spirit; endue me with a perfe&t hatred against all fin; and grant, dear God, that daring and prefumptuous fins may never have dominion over me.. AMEN.
UPON QUENCHING THE MOTIONS O; COD'S
CONSIDER, O my soul, from whence these happy thoughts arise; and wherefore, if they were from nature, they must needs favor of corruption; but now they are from grace, they summon thee to goodness, they becken thee to immortality: thy God now calleth thee to repentance; he offers thee his gracious pardon for thy sin, his love, his protection, his peace; his grace, his glory : he now wooeth thee to favor, and thou (a woeful wretch) convicted by thine own accusing conscience, condemned by divine justice, rebelliously rejectest all these gracious offers: ah, what woeful folly is this! nay, rather what wilful madness! As there is a time of calling, so there will be a time of rejecting ; the blessed wind of God's holy 1pirit bloweth but where it lifteth; when it is once gone, thou knoweft not whether it shall ever return: “God will have mercy on whom he will have mercy, and whom he will he hardeneth,” Rom. 9. Ah woe be unto that foul whose time of calling is once paft; a thousand worlds cannot redeem its loss, if thou wilt not now embrace these comfortable breathings of his tender